Hello! How is going your summer?
I can say I’m glad that July was a fresh and smooth month here in northern Italy. The end of June was super hot and I was scared about that beginning of a hard summer, but at least the universe listened to my wishes and we get the pleasure of windy and raining days throughout all the past month.
The forecast predict that some hot weather is around the corner from the middle of next week, but I want to be positive and I hope that this would be just a few days
Anyway, we’re not here to talk about this, aren’t we?
August is here, and I’m planning some good things for me and my family. A reset is required.
I feel I was in a whirlwind for too much, and I learnt that Hard time require strong minds. I’m in my perimenopause and on the last two years I felt like I’m loosing control on everything. I gained weight, I felt stressed, I felt that my brain melted in some case, and It seems I can’t focus on anything seriously for more than a moment. I felt speechless in some circumstances. For the first time in my life, my creativity also slowed down, and I lost any capacity I had in the past for creating and “overdoing”.
How do you feel about your age? I constantly show up as if I were still 30 (because that’s how I feel - I’m an enthusiastic and genuinely happy person inside), but at the same time, I’m not that young anymore. This has made me feel like I’ve lost a part of myself. I can’t recognize the middle-aged lady I see in shop windows. So, I’ve started asking myself: “Who are you now?”
I felt a profound sense of loss to be honest. I’m going to start a new chapter of my life, grieving something but conquering the new with open heart and mind.
So I ended with some planning:
I need to focus more on my art; there, I can be as young as I want to be. (Read Fragolin! - My stickers character will help me a lot on that! And you can see all about it at my IG account @stayscribble )
We’re going to welcome a new furry family member soon and we’re so excited about that! I’ve wanted to adopt a cat for ages, but allergies held me back. However, last month I decided we could manage it with homeopathy and by choosing a specific type of furry cat. I hope that this dream can come true very soon.
Refocus and prioritize what’s important for me and my family, with a renewed twist on socializing, like getting in the world more often.
So, that’s all in here, I have to admit, it’s been a while since I’ve written so honestly on the blog about my feelings. I hope to see you again soon, and that this post can help you too if you’re going through the same things. See you next month with lots of new stickers, planners, pens and inks!
Till next time Xoxo Jdeebella at Soulfulcrane - the creative nest in Italy